Week 9 with Master Key Experience #MKE

Law of growth

Our life and reality is the result from our earlier thoughts, actions and heritage. What we think about grows and what we forget atrophies according to the law of growth.

If I want to change a situation I need a plan for how this will be done. To make the change a reality I need to get my subconscious mind working for my will. I need to feed Subby with new positive impressions. Because Subby do what it is used to do. I can say that I want to change something, and I start with good results. As time goes by, if I havent fed Subby enough with new positive impressions the old habits will win. There will be no change. I need to provide nutrition to my new desired change to make it a reality.

One way to affect Subby is by imagination. To sit calm, imagine and visualize the desired situation. To see it as it is happening live right now. People, gestures, voices, wind, clouds, cars, movements, stairs, sun, food, chairs and so on.

To make the vision clear and alive. This requires practice. Its hardly likely that this clear and alive vision will be seen at first attempt. Persistent practice will make it grow and develop into the desired vision.

Practice of the week is to visualize how a seed is beginning to grow. How the small fine roots finding its way through the earth. How the cells are dividing and knowing their purpose and doing it. Growing further down and dividing into a net of roots. How the plant starting to rise up in the air and dividing into small branches. How it grows and thickens. How the first leave appear and develop. How the plant grows and get stems. Finally the first flowerbud starts to open up and unfold until it is fully developed. Then to feel its fragrance. To visualize the plants whole lifecycle from a seed to to a fully grown plant with a flower.

I went down to my horse Subby. I am not in the mood for walking today he said. What is my purpose here, he asked. Well I am trying find that out, I said. Lets just go outside for a short while and get some air, I said. We went to the small grassfield and Subby started to eat from the grass.

You have not really told me about your plan, Subby said. Just some instructions and you do some new things I dont remember you did before. Im not in the mood doing new things if you not tell me about it. I know my path I always use to go. Some part of it is really tiring but im used to it so I just go there. I know it creates pain but I am comfortable there. You need to give some clear instructions to me. And to hold me firm in that direction.

I understood him. He was right. It was time to start to move in a new direction. And I had to be loud and clear to Subby what my plan was, what direction we were going, what it looked like, all the details and what we were going to do there.

It was obvious that Subby needed a lot of positive feelings from me. I needed to convince him that way, get him interested. That was what Subby needed right now, a flow of positive feelings. I could not do this without him.

I promise to, Subby. I promise to tell you everything and I promise to do my best to be happy, I said. Subby looked up at me, nodded, smiled and said; Good, I like that.

Week 8 with Master Key Experience #MKE

The fork

I am the result of my choices and when my road parts I choose to take the left or the right. So it is with my life on a daily basis. I have a foundation based on what I previously did in my life. What I thought, felt, did, experienced and inherited. To be aware and get conscious of my thoughts, moods is of great importance.

Because that is the cause of my actions and that is what creates my life. I am changing my life because I dont think I live it at my fullest, at my best. Its not that easy to do it. I have to be persistant and discipline myself to change. I need to practice, practice, practice to create these new habits that lead me to my new desired reality and to my new desired life.

8 weeks have passed through the course. I am honest when I now say that I am going to do it. It came to a important point in the process when the feelings that have been burden me down in my life changed to a expectant feeling. I am zealously looking forward to create my new life. I am deeply grateful for that.

I went down to Subby, my horse. I took him out and sat up on his back. Subby, lets do something that we usually dont do I said. Subby was in a ready position to go just waiting for my instruction.
Go to the restaurant, we will have lunch there. Subby moved with ease and we arrived to the restaurant to have lunch with my friend. I had told him about the course before and now I told him that I felt much more at ease. My vision was still not clear but some parts were clearer and it felt good.

I told him about changes I made since I started the course. Small changes that have lead me to feeling more confident and happy. My mood was better on a daily basis. When he was listening to me he said; There is one thing I thought about and now I decide I will do it. I felt happy hearing him saying that. We decided to meet more often.

Things started to change in present moments. I feel more decisive and have just began to take some steps to my new life.

I looked out through the window and saw Subby standing there. We looked at each other and he communicated with me. He turned his head backwards and said; Have you seen my wings ? You know I have wings. I saw them folded on his back. It was like a old memory I now remembered. I can unfold them at any time, just tell me he said looking me in the eyes.

Week 7 with Master Key Experience #MKE

The week of forgiveness.

So important to forgive. It cleans out a lot of old feelings that are blocking and reducing possibilities in this presence.

To be able to fully engage with expectations I need to forgive.

It comes with mighty healing power.

I let the forgiveness take place in me here and now.

I told Subby to go to the source and we went straight to the pipe system.

Subby went quickly to the center of the source and the high frequency vibrant energy filled our being completely. The doubt disappeared instantly and I came to rest and peace.

I felt a pleasant positive sensation in my body. I was just myself and felt very relaxed. There were no anxiety or fear. It was very peaceful and I realized that Subby was a part of me. It came to my understanding that this was healing universal energy.

Subby, this part of me as a horse, did go straight here and it was obvious for me in this moment that this source was precious for us.

I knew here that that I was fully capable of doing what I wanted to do.

Subby resisted when I told him to go back. Why do we need to go back, he asked me. I knew Subby needed to stay in this place and I just needed to do some preparations for us to move here. I knew he was right.

Week 6 with Master Key Experience #MKE

Starting to act

This week’s have laid the foundation for changing habits. I’m starting to walk at the path towards my new desired reality.

I’m starting to feel a little bit more happy and my resistance is today weaker than it was 5 weeks ago.

I am now looking forward.

I am in a better mode.

My shell is cracking up.

I have begun to feel expectation.

I have taken some small action towards my new life.

Communicating with some of the other 400 students in this Master KeyExperience course is of great value.

Many are stepping forward and it’s a real pleasure to read how they overcome limits, obstacles and feeling more happy and confident.

This sharing part is actually a very important part for me.

I am eager to continue.

I went down to Subby, my horse. He was in a clearly better mood and this happened just the last days.

Our walking period side-by-side was over. We were just walking, not really riding, even that I was up on his back. We felt comfortable this way.

I let Subby show the way. We walked the usual path and then Subby turned off to the right.

It was lushy and leafy here with a lot of undergrowth. Subby stopped and we looked at the flowers. There were several butterflies flying around and between the plants and the flowers. It was beautiful and we felt a pleasant scent from the flowers.

Subby continued the path that were going along a tree road with a meadow surrounding. At the end of the path that was an opening in the foliage between the trees. Now we were in front of the entrance to the net of the pipes, the piping. We just looked at it, no entrance today. We knew we were going to go back in there, even deeper than last time. We knew it was coming pretty soon.

We sensed our connection now Subby and I. When we started to reconnect there was a lot of emotions in between us. This energy was blocking our linking channel. There was a transformation in progress. Some of this energy had already transformed into a creative energy that linked us together.

It felt just natural and it was a relief for us. We felt connected and leaned on each other, Subby and I. Subby continued and at the end of the tree line the was a big meadow that spread out.

At the meadow was an old orchard with apple, pear, cherry and plum trees. Now it was the flowering season and Subby walked slowly among and in between the trees. We spent the whole afternoon here. We stopped randomly and felt the scent from the flowers. We heard the sound mat, a buzzing from all the bees and the bumble bees flying between the flowers.

Subby entered into the branches. The bees, the leafs, the colours, the shapes, the buzzing, the wonderful scent, the flowers. This was undoubtly one of nature’s wonders. Mother nature providing her mystical magic. Nature gave us a first class performance and we were on the first row.

Subby and I connected and I could in that moment feel how we grew stronger.

Week 5 with Master Key Experience #MKE

To observe without opinions

In this week we are exercising to be the observer without having any opinion. It is challenging for me, my old way of thinking is usually active in my daily life. I am getting aware of how I often react instinctively at things happening. It is like I am in a certain field of feelings and I respond in a certain way.

It could be my own thoughts, it is where I usually go, what I usually do. What kind of thoughts, feelings and behaviour I mostly have. Like I go to a certain place with a certain feeling. I do this repeatedly over and over again. Some things I do every day and other things occur every week. It is a pattern.

I am not really open and present right here right now. It is how I react upon my inner thoughts and at people and ongoing things in the surroundings. It is like a connection where old patterns makes me respond as I always do. I feel that my autopilot have been dominatinating my life for a very long time. Now I am getting more conscious about my normal, most common posture.

The exercise helps me to be attentive to what I think and what I feel. This response comes from my thoughts and the surroundings. If I am in the presence I can choose how I respond to it. It is like to turn off the autopilot and take charge in drivers seat.

I went down to my horse, Subby. We had been doing our daily walks for a few weeks now and we were in a clearly better condition than when we started. Our connection followed the same track. It was better but there were still a lot of improvement that needed to be done.

We started to walk when Subby stopped after a short time. I looked at him and he said; Come on, jump up.
I did not answer him clearly, I just thought . . . really ? Is it the right time for this now ? I found myself on his back and felt some uncertainty.

Subby started to walk and suddenly we were in a water pipe. What was this ? Subby moved forward and there were a lot of things hanging from the ceiling and the sides. They were muddy. They looked like the plants hanging on the trees in a swamp.
One touched my shoulder and dissolved. This place clearly needed a thorough cleaning. It was a net of pipes. Like the branches of a tree.

Subby moved forward and followed one pipe going to the right. We passed pipes going in all directions and angles. As soon as I came in contact with the hanging mud it dissolved. Subby stopped and we looked into a pipe that was completely clogged. It was a hard surface on it. Here it was not possible to pass through. We continued further into the net and I got the feeling we were getting closer to the center.

Subby increased his speed and jumped over a high treshold. Now this was something completely different. The pipes in the net were strong and clean. They looked brand new and had a shimmering light at the surface. The energyflow was vibrant. We were close to the source. This felt good, the same net but another unit. We felt alive here, our energy was high and now we looked and smiled to each other for the first time in a long time.

We started to walk back and I was almost in a state of schock. I remembered now. I felt the energy on the way out. There it was. As a child I used to play here with some playmates. When we first got in I did not recognize the place because It was in such bad condition. Now I knew where I would live in the future. Closer to the source.

Week 4 with Master Key Experience #MKE

To subdue one habit with another. Change habits. Make new patterns. This week have been challenging. I am increasing the effort to overcome my resistance. I am moving myself forward. I have increased my activities. I have changed my thoughts. A little. It is a step in the right direction. This means also that I have been able to change my emotional mode consciously. I feel good about that.

In this weeks webinar we could see (400 of us doing this Master Key Experience and we all post blogs) how our thoughts and feelings create peptides in our brain. To make it more simple I just call it a chemical reaction. These peptides need to be fed with the same signals and chemicals that created them.

If I have a pattern, let us say that I feel fear, anger, sadness, nervous or any emotional state, every day. I have done this for the last 30 years. Then I need this flush of emotions to calm down. Even if it is pain in my body. If I am used to have it, my subconscious mind will create new pain for me. Because I believe it belongs to me. If I have had pain in my body for as long as I can remember then it have become a part of my identity. Like a living entity. So if the pain level is getting lower my subconscious will create new pain for me so that I can calm down. I feel secure with it. Now the situation is normal I tell myself. Pain is there. Everything is normal. I am familiar with it.

Now I talked about pain as an example. I could replace it with fear or any other feeling that in my opinion has a depressing effect on the body. My identity is created of this recognition and memory. This could be feelings, actions and patterns creating our life.

I experience that when I challenge it, it feels threatened and tries even stronger to manifest itself. Is it necessary to replace one pain with another ? Whats the point with this ? There is no point with it. No one at all. The point is to replace the fear, pain, anger, sorrow and so on with purpose, satisfaction, passion, joy, happiness, love and beauty. That must be the recognition. To create and build new bioneuorological pathways.

I have lived my life reactive based on fear. A fearbased reactive life. I take it all in here and now. I inhale it and suck it down into the fat of my bone marrow. It has been there all my life so it is necessary to go there. I respect it. It is powerful. There is a reason for it being there. Need to respect that. I accept and understand. Everything has an end.

There is a big important difference now, the new Me rejects this ! ! ! My new Me embrace my old blueprint, takes a firm grip, use all my powers and strength and throw it out. Get out ! ! !

Time to celebrate 🙂

The old patterns and memories left some energy in my body even I threw them out. They are not stupid. I need to repeat this over and over again. I know.

My first steps are careful. Little unsecure. Other memories comes up to surface. I adapt quickly. In this memory I am not connected to fear. The older memories helps me to walk with confidence. I remember now.

I went down to Subby, my horse. We went out for a walk. This week we have been walking every day. I feel better and Subby too. A little more confident. Our breathing capacity is increasing. We want to walk daily now. Our connection is getting stronger. There are moments when we look at each other and feel connected. We are not yet ready to ride. We made a try a few weeks ago and I almost fell off.

We both need to be in better condition before I sit up and ride Subby. This walks is good exercise for us. Our bodys and abilitys are getting stronger. Sometimes I get a bit withdrawn, introvert and lose the presence.

When I look up I find that Subby have left the path and walked into the forest where the terrain makes the walk difficult. It also happens that I find us in a marsh where we get lost from our pathway. It takes time and effort to find our way back to the path in that moments. It is a struggle when it happens. We exercise this now.

We need to keep ourselves more effortless on the path before it is time for a ride. It happens more often now that we are looking at the horizon at the same time.

Today we kept us on the path. I feel satisfied about that. Subby like it too. It feels important because we relax, our steps are easier, we move smoother. My thoughts get clearer. Subby nods to me, he is pleased with it. Now we are back home again. It was a good day. Time to rest and we are just waiting for our walk tomorrow.

Week 3 with Master Key Experience #MKE

Knock, Knock ! There is somebody at the door. It is me. What do I want ?

Week 3 and I am working on to create new habits. Better habits than before. Important to celebrate each step too.
Actually it is we doing it. Me and the other 400 students in the course. All of us do blogs as a part of Master Key Experience.

I explain my understanding in this presence. I pick one part here now. One of the tasks we are doing is to put up a chore on chorecard. On top of it I write;
I promise to……then I write the chore, let say……clean out papers at my desk……at a certain date, always sunday…..October 14. I mark it with a red circle this week. In the bottom I write; I always keep my promises…..then I sign with my name Per-Olof Söderblom.

I decided this chore at October 7. Three times a day I read it out loud with enthusiasm. At the same time I read out loud last weeks chore that was to clean my car that I did. This is marked with a blue rectangle. It feels good, because this was something I thought I would do for a long time but never did.
There is a continuity in this and I experience some positive change in myself. I read it louder than before, I start to believe in it. My confidence is slightly better. It feels good. I absorbe the the feeling of satisfaction. This was something I did now, but earlier wanted to do for a long time and did not do. It is good. I like it.

So it is a kind of celebration. I connect something that I planned to do and then did. I remind myself and my subconscious mind, Subby about it and I celebrate it. Woohoo, yippie I cleaned the car. It is a bit funny and at the same time it is not. Because Subby does not know the difference if I have broken the world record or cleaned the car. If I put the same amount of joy, enthusiasm and feeling of successful victory Subby does not know the difference.

The main question is;
What do I want ?
If I want help from my subconscious mind I have to be crystal clear. Because Subby do not do vague.
What am I going to do ? Where am I going to do it ? When ? How long ? Income ? How ? What do I need to give up to make this a reality ? How does that feel ? Subby wants to know this. Subby wants crystal clear. How does that feel me living my dream and inner desire ? Specificity.

It is a drawing. To give a picture let say this is a drawing of a bridge. Where is this bridge going ? It is going to a place where I want to be, where I live the life of my dreams. Where my life has a purpose. If I drop this drawing on the street, anybody who pick it up would be able to build the bridge from the instructions on the drawing. This is how specific I must be to get my subconscious mind working to make this a reality.

I went down to the cellar and took out my horse. He was a bit reserved and we started to walk. Suddenly he stopped and turned his head away from me. He did not want to walk and he did not want to talk. We were just standing there. We did not want to go back and in this moment we were not moving at all. I felt his sadness. I moved closer to him and hugged him. I saw a tear fall down on his cheek, in the same moment I felt my tear on my cheek. Now the tears flowed from us. I felt our heartbeat.
After some time there were some small birds which drew our attention. We heard them quit when they flew between some bushes and trees. My horse saw the grass growing there and started to walk. When we got there he started to eat from the grass and I sat down beside him. I took out my tool from my shoulderbag. I picked up the tool connected to my will and started to brush it with a steelbrush. It was rusty. I looked at the stone I brought, that was lying there in the grass. My symbol for understanding and also connected to my heart.
It was quiet and peaceful, we sat there for some time. It felt good to be there. Important and precious. It had been mostly cloudy all day, now the sky cleared up.
We were interrupted in our doings when the sunrays hit us. There was a good view up here from the hill. We both looked up and saw the sun over the horizon. It was a beautiful and clear view. We felt good to be here and we knew we were preparing for a journey.